failure heart double

Is there a chance
To tell you right in the eyes 
How I feel and somehow I know you may run away
But tell me is it that bad to be straight
I cannot lie to myself anymore
My chest may explode if I keep this to myself one more day
Will you be ok

If I admit how I cannot sleep
cuz you are not here and you'll never be
And more than a year I tried to avoid it
But you are the reason that I'm still here
I will not die today
Cuz I wanna say it out loud
And if you wanna here my pain
I'm happy to share it again and again
Cuz you know
you know
Is this too personal