I'm fucked up

I'm used to wishing things that usually never get 

I tried to love someone I actually never met

And it was bittersweet it felt like I'm in hell

I wanted more and more, but how could I tell

What I feel

If it's real

Desire

You asked me

And I can't tell

Why you're the one I admire

Now I wanna die

Feel like I would cry

But my eyes are dry

I can't explain it

How should we name it

I wanna die ....

This fellings float both ways I know it

But how the hell can we show this

If I'm not the one for you cuz this is so wrong

Give me just a second with you alone

I don't need more